Having a strange feeling today like I'm stuck in an awkward dream that I can't quite control.
Too many important things need to be done, and my individual existence is just not keeping up at the moment.
Wanting to do so many good things... hoping... trusting that everything will work out the way it is supposed to, but knowing I can't leave it all up to fate.
There are many good people around me, they help me every day and I am very grateful. I make a conscious choice that I want to learn everything I can from the life I am experiencing. I want to be a good person. I need to be a better husband. I desire to be a fantastic father.
I want to reach out, to help, and encourage. I want to live with no regrets, to share the truly important parts of the journey with loved ones and friends. I think about the world, and I worry for the stranger who is cast aside, under appreciated, and misunderstood.
I see the world trying, the human race stumbling over itself. All the arguing over solutions to problems, when animosity IS the problem.
I struggle, but I accept that it is MY struggle. I know the path that I walk- it is familiar and fascinating. Patience is a vision of what is really valuable.
Progress has been made, it is priceless and fragile.
I want to wake up...
...and stop floating.